Discovery

Hey peeps,

sorry for the hiatus again. My life has been boring after internship. Gonna look for a new job soon. Anyway, Outbar had their anniversary last week and I made an amazing discovery. I went inside around 8pm and we got some drinks.

Suddenly, about an hour later, I saw this familiar guy walking in. He was with another. This guy looked familiarly buff and tan. Then I realised it was Chris. OMG, he is gay.... All this while, I couldn't tell. I mean, my gaydar isn't very good but him, gay just didn't register.

I stared at him and he looked at my direction briefly and turned away. I guess this is mostly the AJ community. We forget people fast... But who am I to beAJ friends with him eh? We left aaround 11 cause the rest had to go to work on the next day.

Sad news

So guys, I have not been blogging but I had been caught up  . I have known him for about a year so we were close at some point of time. A few weeks ago, he called me and we met up.

Strangely, he was always this energetic guy and was always lively. I thought he was sick or so. I didn't know it was serious until he told me. He hesitated at first but I noticed something was wrong with him.

Finally he told me the real deal. He got infected with HIV. Both him and his bf, now ex, were tested positive and thus this caused him to break up. I have no idea how to respond initially. What do you actually say to someone who just told you they're positive?

Slowly, he revealed that he came to terms with it and started his medication already. All I could do is not judge and yes, I've been accompanying him for quite some time and we went to watch some movies together. 

HTHT with bestie

Sorry for not updating this bog. Been caught up with a few things like family gatherings. So yesterday i met up with Asri and we sat at pasir ris macdonalds till late. 

We talked about a lot of stuff including the people in the aj community. We gossiped about people like Jerome. Whats so special about him? He looks no different from an ordinary kid. Yes cute but to worship over him its like ridiculous. Ah well if im not mistaken he claimed to be flutist back then and then from there he promoted himself. 

The Aj is really small yes but they are disgustingly superficial. Even they look for similar built friends or someone of an interest to them. What can we do? Just stay strong i guess.

Internship ending

Well my internship is ending and I need to find something new to do. What can I do I wonder? That old man is still annoying me towards the end but he has learnt to shut the fuck up. Im going miss some of then. Celine and Grace. Im not gonna see hottie Chris also hahaha .

Anyway I have deleted grindr cause its pointless! All that talk to me are despos and no many people reply me also. Haiz, I wonder if theres a place for an ugly Aj guy like me.

Asri has been getting a new date as always and thats why hes busy. What to do when your best friend is dating? Just watch till the next break up.

Attached or not

I have this theory..in the aj circle. hardly any real relationships can last. Its always a transient period because as much I am aj..theres no ultimate goal compared to a straight relationship, eg marriage children.

So whats the point of getting attached if you know deep down you are one day going to break up due to all lot of factors.

It does not help that guys are superficial and have a high tendency to cheat and go for someone else. It seemed over the years there are generally 2 kind of people. One who always are attached and the ones who are never attached for long periods. Thats all for my rants today.

Massage experience

After hearing so much from my friends I decided to give massage a try. So i visited this place around the town area. It was sleazy and located on the second floor of a shophouse. But inside was nicely renovated. The welcome me like a boss calling my sir and all. But my heart sank when I saw the therapists. They are nothing more than male prostitutes. One by one they paraded in front of me. There were about 8 of them. I finally chose this guy Richard.

I was brought into the room for shower and then the massage started. It went well and soon he began to tease me around that area. Thats when after the massage he began to ask me for special services. He was indeed cute and my type and i told him to strip abd give me a handjob. It was $50 though.

I came not long after and then i took a shower. Afterwards we chatted a bit and i found out hes from KL. But its so sad they had to do this for a living. :/

Stay home fri night

Ah wells its a stay home friday night. Everyones out excpet this loser here. Azri is enjoying himself at Tantric and Taboo. I hope he is fine.