Time to PLAY

Its a boring Sunday today but I just came back from Play this morning. I had about 6 hours of sleep and woke up at 10am. Told me dad I had a class chalet and slept over there. He is always the strict one and thus I do not have much freedom compared to a lot of my peers. He would always ask me about my whereabouts and I feel very restricted even though im turning 21.

Play was fun yesterday. I met up with Kyle and his friends at Maxwell around 10pm. His friends were all Chinese except this malay guy, Joel. Im sure that's a made up name but oh well. He is only 19 and studying in SP. There's one guy that caught my attention. His name is Brandon and he's my age as well. He is not well built, skinny but has very nice features. I heard he dropped out of poly to help his father in some business. That explains the Gucci wallet and the multiple credit cards in it. Typical rich kid eh. I tried to talk to him but he seemed not interested though. Think he might be seeing someone but as well. What chance does this fat guy have with someone who's of that calibre?

We head to Tantric first for some drinks after paying for cover charge for some drinks. As usual that play is crowded with ang mohs... and money boys or so I was told some of the Asian guys were. As usual, I find it very amusing that the Asian boys tried to fake their accents whenever they talk to the Caucasians. Try harder boys.

Plat music was great that night but the crowd was so so. There's this bunch of malay guys who kept pushing us and I felt super irritated though. Like what's their problem seriously? We tried to grab a cab after Play but as usual, it was so hard to find one that's empty AND willing to pick us up.

Interesting work day

Just got home. Work was particularly interesting today because there's this new intern, Jessica who just joined us. She got posted to the same department as me and she was from the same JC as me. She is 2 years younger than me though. These girls are so lucky, they don't have to serve NS. We talked a lot about our former JC and we do share the same gossips about  certain teachers. Oh, John, the homophobic racist dude kinda muttered something again when I walked past him today. What the fuck is wrong with him? I kinda ignored the whole thing and having someone new in office in office cheered me up.

Oh Chris looked just so adorable today. He wore a pink shirt and it looks superb on him.

PS I kinda feel like eating of bowl of laoban tao huay.

Short meet up

So today I met up with KW. Well, his name is Kyle. We went to White Sands Macdonalds after dinner for a drink. He seemed to be a pleasant guy and we can click quite well. We talked a lot about our lives and his relationships. He is a nice guy but I doubt we can go anything further than friends. Well, I don't think Im quite ready and he told me he just broke up a month back and thus still recovering from his heartbreak. Sian, tomorrow need to go back to work.

The app

I was waiting for the bus just now and decided to use Grindr. As usual, I saw many request seeking for fun. I would ignore them all. Then i saw a message from this guy K.W. He said Hi. I Checked his profile. He is a 23 year old skinny chinese guy but isnt that attractive in any way. He stated that he's looking for friendship and LTR. Seemed sincere. So I replied him with a short "Hi. Wassup?" He replied promptly and we just chatted for about an hour.

I found out he is currently studying at SIM and is a frequent clubber unlike me. Been to a club once and didnt enjoy much.

As I was chatting I saw this hunky and attractive guy in the list. I checked out his profile. He is 26 and is 178cm tall with nice biceps and chest. I messaged him and after 4 hours, still no reply. Rejected I guess. Whats new for me?

That boy

Today was another work day. It was super boring yet I have 2 more months till my internship ends. Everything was mundane except for Chris. Chris is just another intern like me yet at 21, he is very handsome.and well built. I heard he was an armour officer in his NS days and that explains his excellent physique.

Chris and I arent that close but we do greet each other when we bump into each other. He is in another section of the department so we do work with each other yet I can see him from my desk. I would try to steal a few glances at him whenever I can.

Thats all for work. A short post because Im already tired.

Trevvy chat

It was a boring night and I felt bored so I logged on to trevvy's IRC or they called it sgboy chat. If I heard right, trevvy used to be called sgboy.com. So as usual, there are plenty of people looking for fun and some even selling poppers. I was merely looking for some people I can talk to but well, its so hard to find a genuine friend using that medium. That night I became boy20. I scrolled down the list of peope in the IRC forum. I clicked on NSF19 and said hi.

The reply came quite promptly. "stats seek?" Thus I replied "20,175, 84, M. friends"  For those who are not familiar, the first refers to my age, the second one is my height, the third is my weight and last one is my race. Im not actually Malay. Im Indian Muslim yet due to my religion I tend to associate myself with being Malay and spoke it as well.

No response. I said "Yourself?" I waited for a moment yet there is no reply. Which means one thing. REJECTED. The gay world is harsh in that way I feel. I scrolled through and there's another person called action_23 messaging me. "Hi seek fun?" I politely replied no and continue to scroll down. I saw someone called "Student21" and without thinking messaged him "Hi seek stats?" he replied. "21 176 60, M. Friends/LTR" So I introduced myself and the next thing he asked was for a pic. I hated to give others my pictures because I had always felt insecure a bout my looks. Most of the times, I received no replies after giving my picture to them. I hesitated for a while before passing him a link to my photo. I then asked him for his. No reply also after a few minutes.

"Hi 45, 168 75 mature chi. U mind?" Rexon12 messaged me. Im always uncomfortable with making friends with matured people but that night, I continued talking to him. I then found out he is married with 2 kids. He seemed to make a lot of sexual suggestions during our conversation and I repeated declined to meet him even though he told me he'll willing to drive to my place. I ignored him after a while and saw a few more other messages which includes masseurs promoting their services.

I gave up after an hour because no one was sincere enough to be friends.

Bestie's break up

So, after work I went to meet Azri. Azri has been my best friend for 3 years. Well, both of us are AJs, so that's why we clicked well since JC days. Azri, however was very different from me. He is tall lean and has very nice features. No surprise some girls do swoon over him in our JC days. He politely turn many down and told them he'd rather stay single. However, only I know the truth. He is always the sports guy and I rather join club CCAs like Interact Club. However, we never failed to hang out often in school and our friendship lasted throughout NS even though he is a sergeant in Pulau Tekong and I'm just a clerk at CMPB. It helps that we stay a few blocks away from each other.

That night, he didn't appear cheerful as always. I meet him at a park near our house I was puzzled so I asked "Az, what happened to you?" He lowered down his gaze and kept quiet. "It's over" he mumbled after a few silent moments. Az finally broke up with Nathanael. Az, like so many malay guys prefer to have a Chinese boyfriend. I have no idea why but it seems like a trend for malay guys to scout for a Chinese boyfriend. I termed them "banana lovers". Banana because they are yellow and im referring to the unpeeled kind. (wink if you know what I mean) I myself do find Chinese boys attractive but I don't mind having a boyfriend of other races too.

I had never personally liked Nat, because he always seems to be flirting around with other boys. That is what I heard from other but Az loved him a lot. He is the typical Chinese twink with small eyes but with that complexion and small stature, he makes a lot of people melt.

"I found out he hooked up with a guy" Az said softly. It looked like he was about to cry but did his best to stop his tears from rolling. I sat there silently thinking of ways  to comfort him. What can you say to a bestie who has just broken up? Don't be sad? There are better guys out there? Cliché much.

I reached out my arms and wrapped it around him. He continued sobbing while I pat his back telling him how great a person he is and how he will survive without Nat. He continued telling how angry and disappointed he was and I was there with him trying my best to cheer him up.

He felt slightly better after an hour or so and we parted ways. I really hope bestie's fine. He had been through a couple of break ups and I'm sure he'll be fine.

Gay Fuck

Today was a pretty boring day at work but nothing came worst than the first comment i heard from a colleague. I was late today and had to rush all the way to my office to meet my manager at 9am. I glanced at my watch. 9.05am.  Shit, I was already late. In the midst of squeezing through the small and squeezy office, I bumped into one of my collagues, John.

He is a 40 year old man, married with 2 kids. I always disliked him. Everyone told me he is racist so I didnt talk to him much but what surprised me was his comment. Soft but clearly audible. "Gay Fuck." Yes I am flamboyant in nature but I havent come.out to anyone in office since Id started my intern here in this office. I gave him a cold hard stare and quickly rushed to my desk to prepare for the meeting.

"Din... You're late again!" The dragon lady said when I stepped into her office. I had to endure her lectures but I had little choice. Its okay. hat sums my day but I meeting bestie after that.

Im different very different

Hello guys. Im starting this new blog to rant about everything. If you do not know me, Im gay. Yes Im proud of it. Fuck those homophobes. So stay tuned for more updates of my life.