Fantasy

I gave out a soft moan as he put his muscular arms around me... I got closer to him and he started to kiss me..In the midst of our passionate kiss, he lifted off my shirt and his hands caressed my body. I took the opportunity to lift off his shirt to reveal his well formed chest and abs.. I fondled his nipples and he gave out a moan in pleasure. I proceeded and played them with my mouth. He was enjoying it and I can feel through his shorts that he is getting hard. I had a raging hard on as well...I removed his shorts and his boxers. I was thrilled to see he had a beautiful 6 inches tool which looks so amazing.

I devoured the shaft into my mouth and enjoyed every single bit of it. He was moaning in pleasure and was getting louder by the second. I looked at him from time to time. This guy was a tough hunk by day and slave to pleasure by night..Beads of sweats began forming on his forehead and I sucked him.

Soon enough, he pushed me on bed and spread my legs wide open. He cant handle it any longer, I bet. He teased my hole with his fingers and I started to moan in pain and pleasure. "Just fuck me!" I begged. He gave me a grin and slipped himself inside of me. The feeling of pain was pleasure to me and he start thrusting into me. His rhythm got faster and I started to moan out his name. "Chris... ahh... " After a while I could see his sweat dripping from all over his muscular body, giving him a nice golden glow.. 

He removed his tool out and then sprayed all over my face. He gave a deep moan as he sprayed it on my chest and proceeded to kiss me on my lips. He put his hand on me and started to help me shoot. I shot after while later and he then me gave a sexy smirk.




That's when my alarm clock rang and the end of my sexy fantasy...

shut the world out

Hi guys. I just feel that I should shut the world out. Since everyone is so superficial and stuff, why bother to even go out? People are just so mean. Just because im born like this, they have to treat me this way.

New guy

So I begin talking to this new guy, Vincent. He messaged me on the app a few days ago and we start talking. He is from ITE Simei and aspire to be a nurse. Well, he is 170 and 55 kg according to his profile. He looks kinda cute and sounds interested. So, Im still texting him at this hour cause he said he cant sleep. Oh wells. Hopefully things get better. I should ask him out soon though.

We talked about a lot of things from hobbies to Lady Gaga. Well, he's a little monster too! and we share the same favourite song. Judas! Just pray for me that this leads to something okay?

Perv in the bus

Wah lau.. today when i was going home in the bus. This old uncle sat beside me. Then he started touching my thighs.. what the hell? I gave him a cold stare after a while and he stopped. He got off the next stop. Whatever it is he gross man.

Work as usual was boring except I had lunch with Chris. Thats a progression.

Papa dont preach

So, dad talked about my flamboyant behaviour again. I think he finds it annoying but I dont care. I am who I am. As usual, he talks about marriage and finding a good girlfriend. One that upholds muslim values etc etc. He said its good for me when I grow old and theres someone to take care of me.

My mum was rather quiet but had to agree with my dad on most stuffs though they kinda know Im gay. Still they neever fail to lecture me on homosexual. How is it sinful in the quran etc..

He then told me about how his colleague who was flamboyant or gay. He used the word "pondan" so it can mean either. Now that man has changed and marry a woman. They are now happy etc etc. Haiz...

The lecture lasted for like 1 hour before it ended. What a day.

Whats your problem?

Waa... that fucker John today just had to make fun of me during a presentation today at work! What a knn ccb SOB! I was about to do a presentation when he gave me the broken wrist gesture. It annoyed me to hell man. Hope hedies and go to hell man.

Valentines day for all except me

Happy Valentines Day to all. Except me.. It was valentines dat yesterday and all I did was to catch up with a BMT mate. Wow, this guy Daniel really changed from obese person to a toned guy. His name is Muthu and I know him as the jovial funny guy. Now he gyms almost every other day. He was a specialist at Sungei Gedong Camp in his NS days so he got his serious look now compared to the BMT days when his mischief got us into trouble a few times. So thats my Valentines Day with Muthu!

Only if I have you

Work these past few days was boring... except Chris! He's just so adorable. But but.. I picked up the courage to talk to him more I guess. I found out he was from RI, going to study Medicine in NUS. How much more perfect can he be.. but he has no girlfriend though. Well, he told me he's too busy for that. Ah, enough of my fan girl modem

Play's last night

So everyone heard about the news. Play is closing down. So i decided to follow Az and Kyle came along with us. We reached around and the queue was already like OMG. We wait for about a hour plus before getting to in. Its packed like hell and we were bored cause there was actually no space. Az kept bumping into his friends and Kyle went to find his other gangs. His friends were mostly beng-ish guys I would like to describe. We tried to dance for about an hour till before 1 and exited the place.

We left for dymk to join some of Azri's friends. They were mainly talking and I felt so awkward and I kept quiet. Nobody kind of notice me so might as well O keep quiet. One of Az's friend is cute though yet he didnt look at me at all so... oh well

Another of Az's friend got drunk after drinking so we helped to take care of him. He was pouting rubbish and almost picked up a fight with a guy. A lot people looked drunk that night.

We finally got a cab at around 4+ and i left for home. Lucky my parents were at Malaysia that weekend.

A glimpse of my past

Hi guys, I am feeling emo so Im gonna rant a bit on my past. Well being flamboyant and indian was never an easy thing. It doesnt help that Im overweight as well. Well, i had been given a lot of nicknames. Fat gay, gay apuneneh. Name it. I didnt see it as bullying. I see it as a part of me.Coming from an all boys sec school, being flamboyant is a no no. Well everyone prefers be friending the cool sporty guy, not the interact club fat guy.

Well, have i tried to slim down etc etc? Yes but I failed a lot of times. I tried exercises and eat less but nothing worked out. I lost 10kg during bmt it wasnt for long. In my unit maybe people didnt like me so I did down pes after an injury and posted as a clerk at cmpb. That place is full of AJs but I was never one of them I guess. I was alone except for a few friends. Sometimes its funny how some pepple expect fat people to be funny but im not that sort.

Well, I guess Ill be a loner for the rest of my life world.

Tonight's not my lucky night

Feeling horny just now so I visited CC.. it was a tuesday so its free. As usual, I was given the essentials. A towel and a key for my locker. I went in and straightaway looked for the locker. I went to shower before showing up and I saw 2 boys who barely 18 sitting down near lockers observing the people around. As i walked past them they stared at me and i chose to ignore.

I went up slowly into the dark maze and there are lines of men waiting by the walls. Many are walking around trying to find a suitable partner. I strolled through the place unsure of what to get, maybe hoping to find someone i fancy. 

Then i felt hands touching on me. I looked around and saw this balding indian guy touching me. Eww. I then walked away. There are few cute guys but none looked at me for more than a second.

I grew pretty bored. Was it me or was it them? Sadly, I found nothing that night. I believe theres no place for a person like me. Well who wants a fat indian guy right? Tough luck.

Weekend outing with Bestie

So today we went out shopping at Orchard. As usual, he would go to his favorite shops like Fred Perry and A&F. I on the other hand would prefer uniqlo or cotton on things. Along the way we saw this cute aj couple. Both of them looked very cute together but we looked at them, they immediately looked away. What attitude man? Whatever it is, Az bought 2 shirts and he spent a total of $200+. Haha rich kid.

We also went to this cool sushi place where they serve using mini trains. Was it Genki sushi? He brought me and that was my first time. We are quite liberal with food so i dont care if its Halal or not. Thats all for my short post. Sorry guys. Tired and feel like sleeping.

Valentine's day coming up!